Thursday, March 2, 2017

It’s funny; I just received a notification from Facebook from about a year ago.

One year ago today I was 320 pounds; today I am a whopping 338 pounds, oh how times flies when you are having fun. So now in my 55th year on this planet I’m really over weight, depressed, and dirt poor.  The only thing that is holding me together at this point is my wife who I dearly love, my cats and my artwork. It’s funny; I should be able to lose this weight without any issues.  I’ve done so in the past with some help from my obsessions and focusing on my artwork.

Starting tomorrow I am stopping drinking, going back to my dieting ways, and putting 100% of my free time into my artwork.  I am hoping that I can keep my head together and not get sucked into the darkness of my past.  I keep on torturing myself with thoughts of not being good enough, of being a loser because I have no home and no savings.  How I cannot provide a good home to my wife and my cat babies, because I’m too scared to jump ship again and try for another job.
I just need to concentrate on the fact that I have done the best I could with my life even with a few bad luck spells from a few years ago.

I can do this.

I need to do this.

Wish me luck.

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