Starting tomorrow I am stopping drinking, going back to my dieting ways, and putting 100% of my free time into my artwork. I am hoping that I can keep my head together and not get sucked into the darkness of my past. I keep on torturing myself with thoughts of not being good enough, of being a loser because I have no home and no savings. How I cannot provide a good home to my wife and my cat babies, because I’m too scared to jump ship again and try for another job.
I just need to concentrate on the fact that I have done the best I could with my life even with a few bad luck spells from a few years ago.
I can do this.
I need to do this.
Wish me luck.