Thursday, March 24, 2016


So the road to getting my art career back up and running is starting today. 
I have started gathering all of my supplies and I have started painting some new canvases trying to get the rust off.  It’s been such a long time since I’ve actually done any kind of artwork that was “real”.
What is real you ask?  Well, at one point in my life I was a professional artist that had artwork publish in Heavy Metal magazine. I’ve also created multiple pieces for tons of journals and convention programs.  I even had a small  art show at the Ward and Nasse Gallery in New York City back in the 80s, then I just stopped.   I really don’t want to go into the reasons why a walked away from my professional art career, but it has affected my life over the years. 
Now I’m 54, and I’m thinking that I have only a good twenty years left on this planet and I have nothing really to show for it art wise.  I have over 3000 painted miniatures, loads of filled sketchbooks, and a wall of my paintings, but I don’t have satisfaction of being an “artist”.
So that brings up the scary topic, what is an artist?

a person who produces paintings or drawings as a profession or hobby.
synonyms:          designer, creator, originator, producer; old master
"a mural artist"
a person who practices any of the various creative arts, such as a sculptor, novelist, poet, or filmmaker.
a person skilled at a particular task or occupation.
"a surgeon who is an artist with the scalpel"
synonyms: expert, master, maestro, past master, virtuoso, genius; informal pro, ace
"the surgeon is an artist with the knife"

So technically I’m an artist, but with no formal training.  I’ve never gone to school except for some life drawing classes at the art students league back in New York.  

It’s funny, my wonderful wife Paula is the one who really brought something home for me about art.  She said “Don’t create art for viewing.  Create art for yourself with the idea that nobody will ever see it, put your thoughts and desires, your pain and your love, make it yours first and foremost. ”  I have been creating art with the idea in mind that it will always be judged and that thought has crippled me artistically.   In my mind I always took to heart that I wasn’t as good as the other guy, the trained professional.  But until she told me that, I felt why bother?

Now I’m going to move forward with doing art for art’s sake,  make these skills that I have acquired over the years work for me.  It’s time to start drawing and painting
…. for me.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Working on Being Captain America in Fallout 4 and NOT Playing games.

Hey there Chaos Cultist,

I’m sorry I’ve not been around lately, but I’ve been going through some life changes. Here are a few things that have happened that have affected my gaming and hobby. First off my local gaming group collapsed after the head of the group moved out of the state, the boys in the group have moved on to other games other than 40K, and also my Son has gone to school in Boston. So I have a ton of toys, but no one to really play them with. I do have commissions from my buddy Matt who keeps me in the hobby, but no real players locally. Also I’ve been really re-thinking the concepts of Conventions, since I don’t really plan out games anymore because the effort is not really appreciated by the masses I just play games and work security. I love going to them but now it’s getting very expensive and my job pays no money. Also this is my 54 year on this planet and everything is just slowing down, I mostly just play games on the computer now like Fallout 4 and XCOM 2. Maybe it’s just the way it is and I should just go with the flow.
The Captain Battles Evil Robots

Robotic enemies come in seemingly endless configurations.

Right now I am in the middle of a Fallout 4 campaign where I am role playing being Steve Rodgers. I think it really fits with the universe as a whole, in this alternate dimension where the 50s never really ended after World War 2. Right night I’m fighting the Robot Legions of the Mechanist. The DLC is chocked filled with Robot goodness I highly recommend it, being able to build the ultimate follower is fantastic and also battle a new breed of Raider is worth your time.

My Robot Khorne - The Destroyer! - If you’ve got the skills, you can build the ultimate companion.

Mods will give you the ability to turn your lone wanderer in the Captain very easily, just head over to the Nexus for help. Just a small note about this Blog, starting soon I will be working more on my artwork and Tattoo designs and posted my work here, not always gaming, but more of a mixed bag of stuff so stay tuned.

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