Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Why am I doing this anymore?

So I’ve been really thinking about my hobby and gaming in general. I’ve been feeling very strange of late, because I’m not seeing my kids anymore (they are all now moved out and on) I have a lot of free time. One of the things that I have been doing is a lot of painting and model building, but now I’m just feeling really lonely and depressed. I use to play with my Son at least once every two weeks when he came over in the past. I would set up either games of 40K or some RPG game that he liked and I tried to get through it. (Not an RPG fan.) But I had a lot of fun hanging with him and getting things ready for our gaming weekends. Now that the boy is not around, I paint and get together with my local gaming group about once a month. But I’m losing the passion that I use to have when I had a buddy to play with. Don’t get me wrong, I love my miniatures and I love painting and modeling, but lately I’m wondering why am I working so hard for a game I might play once a month. My gaming group is filled with fantastic people, but they are fathers and older gentleman who do other things, so it’s hard to get some games going. I also want to try other types of games but our gaming group is more 40k centric. I’m just pondering… But I not sure what I want to do moving forward….

5 comments:

Andy said...

My sympathies mate. One thing to consider is that often, the hobby is an end in itself, much like a journey is as important as the destination.

Clint said...

Dear Old Gamer, we all go through ups and downs in both our real life and our gaming life. I bet your son is missing his time with you as much as you are missing it. Have you thought about setting up or joining a play by eMail game with him. While it might not satisfy your face to face desire it would at least keep you in regular contact.

Maxamillian Walker said...

At one point I didn't play with my figures for about three weeks, and I guess we all go through those moments. I didn't paint anything or play at all but afterwards my passion for the hobby was revived.

slobberblood said...

Thanks everybody, I really appreciate your kind words and suggestions. This Winter has been too long and it really messes with my mental health, once the Spring rolls in I’m sure I will get back into the swing of things… also I will always play 40K, every since my friend game me my first box of Space Marines back in the 80’s I’ve been hooked.

Veez said...

Maybe for the same reason I do; I am really busy with work and only get in a game every couple of months or so but I really enjoy the modelling and building aspect of the game-sometimes more than the playing. If the act of modelling itself gives you enjoyment, keep doing it.

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