Saturday, May 12, 2012

It’s a little after 5 AM here on the East Coast of the United States...

and I’m sitting here in the dark in my Studio contemplating things. Last night I lost yet another EBay auction trying to get some Dark Eldar vehicles for my new project. I’ve never really used EBay before; I’ve spent lots of time watching stuff that I could NEVER afford again but never really bid. I was kind of heart sick this morning trying to figure out a way to make money to support my family and also support my one true love, gaming. Back in the early 1990’s I worked for AT&T, it was a great job and gave me a salary that let me build the collection that I have today. Now after being laid off and some very hard family crises, that same collection has saved my family by being sold off to the land of Ebay to I’m sure some very lucky gamers. After 10 years I have an OK job right now but I make just enough to support my family with no real room for luxury items like Games Workshop models or Resin Titans. So I stalk EBay, looking at some of the items I lost to auctions and dreaming of getting my collection back to what it was. For all you collectors out there, you know how it feels not to have a complete collection of something, it kind of drives you a little nuts. So every often I start a project that I can do on a limited budget, repaint some of my older models, or just dream about winning the lottery and buying back all of my lost “children”. This Summer I’m going to be 50 years old, yes officially a beardy git. I’ve made some promises to myself and my family which I plan to keep up with, one being becoming a vegetarian which I completed about two years ago, another being becoming a Vegan on my birthday. I’ve given up drinking partially as of three months ago and I plan to totally stop on my 50th. I was hoping that on my 50Th year I would be able to sit down with my hobby, get some great models, build some amazing armies and just keep on painting and playing till my heart gives out. But the reality is I can’t afford that, if I want to have the gamer toys to collect and paint, I’m going to have to work even harder to produce the money to purchase these things myself. So over the next few months I am going to be giving up all of my weekends and spare time to make some money, overtime, new job, something to pull in some capital. I’m not sure why I’m rambling on here, but what the hell, it’s my blog….

Talking about repaints, here are some OOP Eldar from my collection that I am repainting to use as Dark Eldar, let me know what you think.
Kabalite Warriors

Dark Lance

Dark Lance

Kabalite Warrior


Kabalite Warriors


Kabalite Warriors

Kabalite Warriors

Kabalite Warriors

Kabalite Warriors

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Weird WWII said...

I know how you feel but all this stuff is just that, stuff. There is no hurry to acquire what you want because you will never be finished so accept that. What you do need to do is take stock and really worry about what is real, like your beautiful wife and that growing boy of yours. Those are what is REAL and not the new Buxom Space Bitch army or the Slime Creatures of Mucusus titan just out.

Just feel proud of yourself for being healthier so that you can stick around longer for your family and that they are at your side for the most part. Work those long hours so you can do more with them and drink them in as long as that pump keeps pumping because I'm telling you brother, all this shit is just a weight that holds us down and makes us forget what is really important.

Trust me, I live a life of perpetual sadness and pain for my son's condition and to watch him slowly waste away makes all the other shit around me mean nothing.

Don't lose sight of the real and stay happy with what you already have,


Christopher Sheets said...

One thing to remember about the eBay stuff is that, no matter what it is, it WILL show up again. No need to get heartsick -- it's a lesson I had to let myself learn over time, but it's true and helps deal with the disappointment.

slobberblood said...

I’m so sorry to hear about your Son Brian, I didn’t know. You are absolutely right of course and I feel like a whining douche bag now in retrospect. I am lucky to have a happy healthy family, I’ve had some horrible things happen to me in the last 10 years or so, but now all seems good. I just got so angry that I never get to spend time and money on myself, after all these years of taking care of everybody else, having three kids grown up and two going to college, my 50th coming up so damn fast I wanted something for me. I keep on thinking I just have another 20 years or so left and I want to enjoy what’s left of my life. I mean if stupid little toy soldiers make me happy to be it, I will focus on them. But I am lucky, and once again you are right. Thank You and God bless you and your family. -James

Thanks Chris, I'm sure I will see those again....

cedric said...

you need to have your stuff. some will have smoke, alcohol, hi-fi, electronic stuff or cars. me it's mini and the prospect of making stories, having fun. it's an addiction, can't give up, evades me from hardship. But family is important. Still, having your own private thing is tje secret of healthy life

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